~Be Completely Humble~
I am still around. I just do not have as much time as I would like to blog. I am currently working in a daycare ministering to young children and the staff. Is it easy? No. Is it rewarding? Yes. There have been days I have gone home crying feeling so broken for the children. All I can do is pray for them and their families. I couldn’t how much I love the children I am will everyday. They are amazing. They make my day something to look forward too. I always know I am in for some surprises with them.
My struggle is sometimes I feel like I want to be out on the streets evangelizing instead of changing diapers, cleaning up messes, and giving time outs. I have come to realize that this job is very humbling job. I am not just dealing with children but I am dealing with parents as well. If a parent is unhappy with the way I do something it’s my job to make them happy. I have to express my failures to different parents. And I’ll let you know… that is not something anyone really enjoys doing especially with someone you don’t know really at all. I am learning how to be humble and venerable with people I do not even know. There are many days were I feel like hiding in a hole.
I believe these feelings I am feelings are not bad but good. No I do not enjoy them in the moment but I know looking back I am learning and I am being stretched. I know God is teaching me something through all of this; even though I may not like it and I want hide away. There are days when I feel so vulnerable I feel naked.
I am sorry if you have got the impression that work is hard and I do not like it. That is not what I am trying to convey at all. I am just expressing my thoughts and what I am feeling. I love the daycare and I love the kids like crazy. I am not going to lie or try to sound fake by telling you the working with children from ages 0-5 years old is easy. It’s not easy it’s not but I love the children, they bring joy to my day. I see God expressing His love to me through them. It’s truly amazing! My job is very humbling.
The word humble from the dictionary.com website means:
hum⋅ble
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not proud or arrogant; modest: to be humble although successful. |
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having a feeling of insignificance, inferiority, subservience, etc.: In the presence of so many world-famous writers I felt very humble. |
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3. |
low in rank, importance, status, quality, etc.; lowly: of humble origin; a humble home. |
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courteously respectful: In my humble opinion you are wrong. |
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5. |
low in height, level, etc.; small in size: a humble member of the galaxy. |
–verb (used with object)
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to lower in condition, importance, or dignity; abase. |
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to destroy the independence, power, or will of. |
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to make meek: to humble one’s heart. |
Ephesians4:2
" Be completely humble and gentle ; be patient , bearing with one another in love ."
This verse I felt God bring to my attention the other night. I felt him telling me that this is to be the verse for work at the daycare. I spoke directly to me in that very moment and I now pray it before I go to work because I want this to be my prayer. I pray that this verse may be of something powerful to you as it was and still is for me.
Blessings
